Sonny knew something had to be done. The word must get out, but he felt the situation was too far gone here. His only hope was to find his homeland and inform them that they had been sent corrupted messages and show them the real messages. Maybe they would be more open. If he could get them behind them maybe it would give him the resources to bridge the gap between the cities. But first he must figure out how to decode the messages, and how to find his homeland. 'This might sound far fetched' he thought 'but it's better than staying around here'.
He had been given a book on mathematics and some plans of the encryption device by the mysterious man from the administration. He could study this information and develop a solution to transform the signal back to its original state. As for finding his homeland, he had an ace in the hole. All of these years of listening to the transmissions from his homeland had given him an idea of where it might be. He had not realized it then, he had not even realized it was a transmission back then, but now in retrospect it all fell together. He knew he would miss his friend Go, but this was something that needed to be done.
"Won't you be lonely?" Go asked Sonny when he told him aobut his mission.
"Yes." That was all he could say.
That night Sonny dreamt he was in the cave in the outerlands. His parents were there, tribe members, even Go was there. Everything was great, and warm. Then people suddenly started to leave. He didn't start to mind this until his parents disappeared. Then he thought 'I don't want to be alone'. His anxiety increased until Go was the last one there. As Go tried to leave Sonny's fear called for action so he grabbed on to Go's arm. Go kept trying to pull away as Sonny tried to stop him from leaving. They ended up on the ground wrestling, and then fighting. The last image Sonny had was of Go falling down and smashing his head on a rock. Then he woke up.
Sonny woke up in a panic. As he lay there trying to relax he realized that he would no longer be afraid of lonliness. Although it might be hard to be alone, it was worse to be afraid. People did bad things when they were scared. Look what the higher ups had done out of fear of so called "monsters". Look what he had done in his dream. This all made him come back to the questions he had asked himself about fear and love while he had been romaing the outerlands. Now, his experience had equipped him enough to be able to offer an answer:
Fear is just an ugly voice saying "Me Me Me, do whatever it takes for Me". It's really hard to do good with that screaming in your ear. Maybe we could hear the love if we could just quiet the fear, just like his mother had silenced his cries as a child. Yes, replace fear with love. While in the outer lands he had theorized about love being the absence of fear; now he was convinced. He was sure that Love was the absence of Fear, and he made vow that he would never be afraid of anything ever again.
